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Good evening Pug,

I’ll not pretend to compete with your suffering. My understanding is that Our Lord places great value in your suffering. His consolation via grace is being ‘banked’ by Napoleon you and your brother in a way mortal bankers might only dream of.

Rosary this end tonight for you and your family, God Bless.

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Thank you Danope. My ego wants what others have (freedom from being a caretaker), but God obviously has other plans. All I can do is ask God for help in the day to day caretaking tasks.

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Thank you Danope for your Rosary prayers. We humans have a tendency to look at each other and wonder why some people seem to have it easier than others. But of course we are only looking at our earthly lives. I have to keep reminding myself that Jesus did not say an easy earthly life with riches and no troubles is the key to getting to Heaven. In fact Jesus said the opposite.

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My prayer for you and your family is to have your burdens lifted and made lite. If I lived in your area I would be happy to help with your burden. I took care of my mother when she was on her way out from cancer but she went fast and so it was onlt six weeks not years upon years like you and your devoted family have been doing. Believe me that you and your siblings will be rewarded one day for your willingness to be in the service of your mother. Romans 5: 3,4,and 5 is one of my faves for life's tribulations. May God bless you and your family with the strength and endurance that you need at this time of caring for your loved one.

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Thanks so much Charlotte for your kind words and offer of help. I looked up Romans:

"And not only so; but we glory also in tribulations, knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience trial; and trial hope; And hope confoundeth not: because the charity of God is poured forth in our hearts, by the Holy Ghost, who is given to us."

I used to have absolutely no patience. Now I have patience and trials, but I'm still waiting on getting that hope. Maybe in the next few decades!

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Yes, it takes a lifetime for me to learn my lessons and grow up spirituality, emotionally and stay on the narrow path. I am 70 years young and feel like a remedial student at life on this earthly journey.

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I know this may seem like a steep investment, but the quality of life for your entire nearby family can benefit from using a BEMER.

Go to www.mywellnessvibe.com

Or https://daria-schooler.bemergroup.com

One of my friends and colleagues is near DC, and if you are in that area, I’m sure you could schedule a session.

Feel free to call me at my contact number on the website to learn more.

We all need a BEMER! It’s the most important life and health investment I have ever made. Our bodies are created in God’s image and likeness, and thus are hard to kill, with miraculous capability for self healing.

BEMER (Bio-ElectroMagnetic-Energy Regulatiin) helps me sustain better health, better circulation, better movement with better circulation.

God Bless,

Viva Christo Rey

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Hi Dr, thanks for the link. I will look into it!

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Completely understandable sentiments. God sees all; God knows all. Love is an action, not a feeling. You honor God by honoring His Commandment to honor your mother.

I will keep you in my prayers.

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Thanks. That is true, love is an action not a feeling. Just like faith is an action/knowing not just hopeful thinking. I wish I had faith.

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A forrner atheist, I struggled with it for years. For some,, faith comes suddenly after an experience. For others, it takes years and years of contemplation.

Hang in there, Pug.

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Thanks John. I was thinking - did Jesus have to take care of Joseph for many, many years? I often wondered why Jesus didn't start his ministry until he was 30 years old. That is quite old for someone back then who also never married or had kids. I also read something where it was said Jesus started his ministry one year after Joseph died. Jesus lived the Commandments, probably including honoring his parents by caretaking them (and making sure his mother was cared for by John after his death). As you say God knows how all caretakers feel, as He lived as one on Earth.

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Very interesting. I had never thought of that. 30 yo was quite old, back in Jesus' time. It makes sense that he would've cared for Joseph until his passing.

Caretaking is physically and , especially, psychologically demanding. God bless you and your siblings for enduring this trial and loving your Mom. It is a heavy cross to bear. You all bear it daily.

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"I can't do this anymore God. I am sorry for giving up on what I chose. I didn't know it would last this long."

How long God, how long? The lament of the Psalms.

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As long as He Wills It! 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

This has been a brutal month for many of us.

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Greetings Pug,

I read your piece of today.

It's all very sad.

You, Napoleon and your brother have to save yourselves.

I do not know what else you can do, but perhaps you can find out about taking mom to a euthanasia clinic.

Is it not legal in Canada?

I found this link: https://www.justice.gc.ca/eng/cj-jp/ad-am/bk-di.html#:~:text=As%20of%20March%2017%2C%202021,the%20result%20of%20external%20pressure

This reallycould be the only way out.

It will not be cruel; it will be merciful.

She will understand too.

Life is for the living.

I do not cry over the dead anymore, unless they were close to me, and then only for a very short time, because life and death is part of a cycle.

Best to you and Napoleon and your bro.

Barry

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I waiver on euthanasia. I have euthanized pets to end their suffering. I did not like the process. I don't know...suffering is terrible, but I don't know if humans have the "right" to euthanize other humans. My mom has aphasia, so I don't know if she would truly be able to consent to euthanasia. Slippery slope, for sure...

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Hi Barry. No we are in the US and our mom loves her life and despite her old stroke injuries, she is not in any pain (go figure). I used to think euthanasia was a kind way of putting someone out of their misery. We do it for our pets all the time right? But now I think it's more to put ourselves out of our misery so we don't have to deal with them. I can see it's more of Pug and I have to learn to manage it all. Some days are harder than others though.

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Your lament has been loud and clear ... GOD ALMIGHTY is with you alllll the time ... it's THE HUMAN MIND'S blindness that cannot recognise HIM ... most of the time ... being blinded by the earthly things being dangled before it ... JESUS CHRIST is hiding in plain sight!

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True. My ego tells me I am all alone and God doesn't care about my day to day hardships. But if I had true faith, I would know God cares about my day to day hardships and is with me all the time, even helping me bear the hardships. But some days I just need to lament and call out to God.

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Yes, but more fundamentally to ASK WHAT HE WANTS without preconditions what HE MIGHT DEMAND individually of each one of HIS CREATIONS...

What is it that makes one - THE HUMAN MIND - feel alone? for example... preconceived notions - based on what HE HAS ALREADY CREATED - about HIS PLANS are fogging THE HUMAN MIND'S perception...

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So true. I had the feeling when I read Pug's post that God was weeping too. He understands all, we just want Him to fix it all, now, and that's not the way it works. I keep coming back to the Psalms - humans' eternal cry for God to hear. God always hears, we just want proof of it.

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HE has HIS WAYS of teaching HIS CREATION - THE HUMAN MIND lightening up - but THE HUMAN MIND likes to clinging onto its "old" ways of DARKNESS to its fleshy ways ... not trusting HIS WISDOM MIGHT AND GRACE but preferring hanging on to what it already is familiar with .... yearning for the wide gate of worldly "glory" - acceptance by others - and thereby reinforcing its ill-conceived faith in "THE MATERIAL" ...

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