Dear God

Letters to the Lord

5-15-22

Dear God:

What makes a person never want to change? What makes a person so entrenched in his ego that the person can't imagine being a better person?

I ask these questions for someone I know and of which You know whom I speak. This person's catch phrase for living is "I'll find someone to accept me just the way I am." He's also fond of saying "this is the way I was born."

Is it though?

Are we born one way, set in concrete, and never to change in thought, word or deed from that point forth? Do we never learn from people, experiences, places, teachings, and have the ability to change ourselves for the better?

I know I used to think that, which allowed me to wallow in my depression for 40 years. When I felt the depression coming on, I would say "that's just the way it's always been since the day I was born." But I never really meant that in my soul, because I would always have this nagging feeling that I wanted the depression to go away, and I even tried pharmaceuticals and "therapy" to change it. Of course when those things didn't work, I should have thrown my hands up in the air and said, "I guess this is just me, people should accept me just the way I am!" But I knew that was a cop-out.

No, people should not have accepted me as a depressed, ego-driven, person who only thought of herself and was too lazy to change. You knew that, and You knew what I had to do to change. I had to accept the notion that none of us are perfect the minute we are born, and that all of us should constantly change to be better persons every day of our lives.

That's why You give us a life on this earth. A life that for some people may seem too short, and for other people may seem too long. In the end, our lifespans are exactly what we need for ourselves to become the best persons we can be, if we just make the daily effort. The worst thing we can do is to never change, ever. Who comes out of the womb perfect with no need to learn and change? That'd be Jesus only. All the rest of us have plenty of work to do in our lives.

So back to this person who believes he is unchangeable. I can't reach him, only You can, as You reached me that day way back when. I know You will do it in Your time and in Your way.

Sincerely,

Napoleon